Ok, so I am not really picking up where I left off. Instead, I feel like talking about the trials and tribulations associated with every day life. I have faced many challenges in life: financial problems, relationship problems, deployments, death of friends and loved ones, and more. I look back at it all and wonder, "How did I pull through?" I am not even sure I can answer that. What I do know is that regardless of the problems, I am going to wake up tomorrow. I can even trace that knowledge back to a specific instance. When I was in basic training, they made us rappel off of a 40ft tower. Until that point I was deathly afraid of heights. While I was standing at the edge it dawned on me that I wasn't going to die. No matter what they threw at me in training they wouldn't let me die. I suppose pychologists would call that a significant emotional event, but to me it was just a simple realization that until my time comes I will be able to face anything life tosses at me. From that day forth, even while deployed, I just took life a day at a time not worrying about things. I am not by any means a tough guy. I avoid confrontation like the plague, and I don't like the typical "me tarzan, you jane" attitude. I think if one word can describe me it would be tenacious. I don't give up easily as many of you may know. I just keep trying to get what I want (sometimes I'm not sure what that is). Anyways, this entire post came about because of some recent hardships in my life. I am just going to keep on keepin' on and one day, in a month or two, I will look back and think "that wasn't so bad." Ok, I have done enough rambling with a bunch of disjointed sentences tonight. So I will leave you with a quote once again, this time from a famous military leader, a man known for always fighting through and persevering.
Until next time,
Kenny P.
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